Hate being sick....

Hi again guys!

 

Now it's day numper 3 from the throat operation and everything is still fine.

I'm just so bored cause I can almost speak and I can't do anything fun... :P

 

So I have just wathced movies and sitted and lied down...

 

But I  started wondering what would I want from life?

I have thought that before but I caught me when I thought I'm wasting time while I'm just doing nothing like now...

 

I now I can't help it right now much but what about in life? Those days when u do nothing? It's just another day in this world. So I think u should do somethin different, new or just fun everyday. Even when u are sick or tired or when u hate everybody. Just do something to not waste the day. the hours and minutes.

 

I would want that when I'm older, like 30 or 40 I'd have big house and a big yard. Three children and dog if not more. No worrys to think about. I'd do my working from home, what work it ever would be and I would be some wonderfull handsam man that comes home every afternoon from work and then we could do something together as an family.

 

But that's not enough for me ofc... I'd love to have a beutifull garden and some little pool. I'd want to live in Italy, Franch or Spain. Greece would be ok if not more... :D

See I'm a dreamer. I need my dreams to lead me to the future. I need something to look forward to.

like falling love, dating again before it ofc. I wait for having children and moving to some Place of my own, I wonder what I'm going to be. Cause I have no clue about it... :D

 

I'd love to travel in  those places I'd want to live and thousands of other places. And I'd want to get married in some beautifull Place like in Rome, Toscana, Rhode island, London, Pari, Monaco... So many places... And I have been in so less...

 

I now I'm young, but still... My litlle heart doesn't know how to wait so long when I'd want to fly know... My dreams are so big and I work so hardly already to get to the goal... But is it enough?

 

But if I just want it enough and believe in it, I work even harder, I'll get to there, won't I?

Maybe I just do the things I'm good at and what I love. Life will come when it's time...

 

I hope

 

But right now, I feel tired and I can't get anything done, so I just sit here and dream my big dreams. I have plan but no way to make it happen. But I wait the magic to come and then I can see how the dreams come true.

 

I believe

 

 

Thanks for reading this! Some day I will find my way.

See u! <3

 

Different days and pole dancing

Hey you!

 

I'm changing my blog again...

I'll never gonna find the best way to wrote my blog and I always try to do something new to refresh it. But let's get writing.

 

So I'm at home right now, cause I was in a operation yesterday. They cut my tonsils out of my throat. :p awful feeling time to times...

 

So I'm on sick leave. Hate it cause I'd want to be not at school but at gym... I have lied one and half days and done nothing and it's already too long... I'd like to poledance and do gymnastics so badly right now that it's hard to just stay still... :/

 

 

 

But bit about the operation for those who have never been anaesthetized.

 

I was little bit scared before the operation. Anaesthetise doctor asked me if I wanted to be anaethetized by mask or by needle and I chose the needle and the doctor said I was pretty prave for girl my age :)) Yayyyy... :D

 

Then nurse gave me some pills and little while from then I started to feel not so nervous... :D It was morphine I guess.

 

Then nurse toke me to the operating room and I went to the bed. The doctor came and put the needle into my blood vessel.
They put some pain medicines into it first and then the doctor said the next medicine I would feel in my head and it would be funny feeling. Then I slept.

 

 

I remember when I woke up and the nurse brought me mom right away. I was awake but it was still funny feeling. Like I'd been in some dust and I wouldn't seen properly... :O

 

I wasn't tired but I could slept more. Then I just was and lied still. The nurse gave me water a bit and then I got some ice lolly. It felt pretty good cause I hadn't eaten anything the whole day D: and the throat was hurting little.

 

The time went pretty fast and I ate little bit icecream too and some cold berry soup. That was actually everything I ate yesterday... Ö.Ö

 

But I haven't felt hunger after the operation, cause there's something else to think about. like the pain. It's worse now when hospital medicines won't help me and I eat only home medeicine... But I'm alive and I can breathe so everything is fine :)

 

Here's pic of me at the hospital

 

After all it was scary but now I have experienced this too :) I'm stronger than I used to be :)

 

The first night was OK but I woked up like every second hour and drinked some water and went back to sleep. But there was no bigger problems and I'm glad :)

 

Then I woked up at 7.00 am and didn't feel like sleeping anymore so I wen't to the kitchen and mom put some strawberrysoup to me. It took like over an hour to drink it. :DD But I toke my medicines and now I'm just lieing on my bed.

 

Oh! Almost forgot! I looked into my throat and guess what it looked like? o.O It was all black and white!!!! BLACK AND WHITE!!!!! I was like what the hell?!!!! But mom said that's how it's ment to be so...

 

Everything is fine :)

 

 

 

But now about something that's gonna be more interesting.

 

Let's see what kind of tricks I can do with a pole ;)

 

So I'm poledancer (no it's not the same as stripper!) It's hard and I poledance for fitness and fun :)

 

Me and my good good friend started poledancing about hmmmh.... like several moths ago. It was my friends idea and I wasn't so exited first, cause I thought I would just drop from the pole all the time... :D

 

But it's actually so amazing!! But yeas, I drop some times, but it's so upto you :)

 

Here's some pics ;)

Then I got this to you :D

 

 

 

But if you really wanna see amazing poledancing, here's some for you ;)

 

 

WOW!! Applause for her!

 

Well here was this times thoughts :) Thank you and keep reading :)

 

More pics Instagram.com liianaxd ;) See you there

Bye <3